The Real Me (RP2)

The more things change, the more they stay the same.

It was a stormy night in New York City, he was suppose to have a date with Tiami after the show but now it seemed to be off, things had become personal again for whatever reason. How he got this date he will never known, maybe it was Casey's idea or maybe it was him. He would think that the first was the right answer. After all, everyone hated him still. He figured if he would have stayed away from the business that the pain would go away, he thought that he wouldn't have to hurt himself or anyone any longer but the truth of the matter is that he missed the game of it. He missed going out there night after night performing for people rather they hated him or not.

The Kaden they saw on their TVs or on camera wasn't the real Kaden but a few years ago he became his own character, he has became the person that he hated more then anything. He tried to block out the darkness inside of his heart, he tried. Four years ago the Kaden Kessler you saw was just a shell of himself, he didn't care about the business. He came in, took the win or loss and collected his paychecks and used it for Cocaine. He had been through so much in his life that it was the only thing that would tame his urges to kill himself

; Enter D.E.A.T.H

Kaden tried to run away from his past by shooting himself up, numbing himself but it didn't work. The harder he tried to get away from his past the faster it caught up until he couldn't take it any longer and tried to commit suicide to no luck. His former girlfriend didn't know about it, his friends didn't know about it, hell no one did. He kept everything bottled up inside of him. He sniffed up his line of coke and took a handful of painkillers, muscle relaxers and sleeping pills. He knew that this was the last night of his life and he began to write his suicide note;

I'm sorry for being a disappointment to all of you. I tried to live my life to the fullest and without any regrets but however recently I have began to regret a lot. The feelings inside of me put me in such a dark place, somewhere where I can not escape from. I wish that I could tell you that I tried but I'm not going to bullshit with you. I didn't. In some sick and twisted way, I embraced it with open arms.

When you read this, just know that I am in a happy place, pain free with many lights around me. I have escaped.

I love you all,

Kaden

Kaden looks over the left at just some random woman laying next to him motionless in his bed. He wasn't at his house, he was at his apartment in the heart of New York City. Swinging his legs over the edge of the bed he sat up with the woman making a small moan as if she was waking up. Kaden looks over his shoulder at her to make sure that she was indeed asleep, he didn't want her awake for any of this. He didn't want to look another human in their eyes, he wanted to just be left alone with himself and his demons. Standing up next as he stretched his arms out walking over to the window that over look the beautiful city of New York. Once he had reached his window he leans his forearm against the window and stares out the window with so much on his mind. Kaden thought bout jumping out the window and saying fuck it all and not have to worry about anyone..

Kaden realized at this point he once again messed something up that could have been good. It happened before in his life why not again right? Maybe Angel was right all this time, maybe I become soft. He didn't want to be mean to her no matter how mean she was to him but something she said before kinda sink in some now that he thought about it some more. Whatever happens in the ring needs to stay in the ring, Kaden had mixed the business with his professional life, it wasn't the first time and he was sure that it wasn't going to be the last time either. Once again the woman in the bed stirred and he looked back at the bed and began to walk towards it as the woman lied naked under the sheet. He just stared down at her motionless body wondering if everything she said..was right. Maybe he was soft, maybe this entire time..his entire career he was too soft. Maybe...just maybe he needed to be that asshole that everyone wanted him to be despite not wanting to cross that line again. He was there once and he didn't want to reach that point but apparently people wanted to push him into that direction. He had no choice..he had to be the Kaden Kessler everyone wanted him to be rather he liked it or not.

He sat down right next to get and just looked down at her as he grabbed the pillow. He knew what he had to do, he had to ease some of the pain. He looked down upon the woman with disgust but at the same time he felt bad for her that she had to sleep around with the stars of the business just to try and get noticed. He wanted to end her pain, he began to put the pillow over her face to smother her but had stopped when he looked over and saw a picture of his sister and her daughter Elizabeth.

He had missed his sister so much and blames himself for her death, he slowly dropped the pillow to the ground as he grabbed a hold of the picture frame looking at it. A single tear went down his cheek as he looked at the picture as he closed his eyes as he remembered the last conversation they had prior to "The Accident". He slowly rose from the edge of the bed to his feet and left the room holding onto the picture walking down the hall to his niece's bed room. He opened the door slowly hoping to not wake her, with the crack of the door opening a small light flashed into her room as he saw he peacefully sleeping. Since the death of his sister he had promised to her that he would do everything to protect her daughter from this business which included himself.

He then closed the door softly to not wake her and proceeded to walk down stares to the kitchen still holding the picture. He wanted to get high badly, he needed the fix to get passed what was bothering him. He knew he had to do it but knew it was wrong as well. He let a moment in judgement get away from him and now he had to face it. As he reached the kitchen he sat on a stool setting the picture up in front of him as he looked at it in deep thought...






The next day he knew what he had to do, he had to go visit his sister. He had to make it right between them as he knew deep down that she was looking down on him for not being the man that she knew he could be and the father figure she hoped him to be. He had visited his sisters grave once a year usually around her birthday to wish her a happy birthday. After all, she was so young when she had passed away. He knew he had to get back to being sober again and this time he had to do it for himself and his family and not just someone that he thought cared for him. He was prepared to do so but he had a tough hill to climb. First he had his match against Tiami, Joey & Timmy Boy. He thought that Joey would have given him some form of competition but he was sadly mistaken so now he relied on Tiami to give him everything she could which wasn't much he had to admit. But nonetheless, he was going to walk in and beat everyone and walk out with one more step towards defeating Mr. undefeated Brett Starr.

Brett, soon we will be facing one another inside of the ring. The powers that be decided to build it up, hell I can't blame them you're going to end up losing your precious streak so why not try and milk it for everything its worth right? You've been champion for give or take seven months and that's a feat to have in this business and you deserve the credit for holding onto that strap for as long as you have but the thing is Brett. Soon, me and you, our worlds will collide and when it does you aren't going to walk away as the champion..you aren't going to walk away a undefeated wrestler any longer. You are going to walk away though, I want you to. Let it set it while you walk up the ramp away from that ring empty handed and that one loss in your column that reads; "Kaden Kessler beat me." It's bound to happen one way or another. I'm not going to knock you and say that your not a great champion, you've been champion for seven months. That alone will make you great in this company, to everyone else you're just a loud mouth prick which I can respect from one prick to another.

But the fact of the matter is, that it's only a matter of time between we link up inside that ring. Kaden Kessler against Brett Starr, a match up that is going to tear the building down. I just hope you can deliver that night and give me everything that you can muster up otherwise it will be for nothing. I would have beaten a broken down has been of a champion when I wanted to beat the undefeated champion. As I said Brett, soon, very soon we will face one another and I will take everything from you..just prepare yourself.

Kaden raises an eyebrow with a sly smirk on his face as he looks into the camera as if he was speaking to Brett Starr to his face.

Enough about Starr, let's move onto something bigger and more important right now, my match this coming week..

Kaden looks down as if he is pondering his thoughts. He knew deep down what he wanted to say and then he know what he had to say so he mixed a little of both and began speaking before looking straight into the camera.

I know that I am new here, I know that I may come off as not a threat to anyone in this match or hell anyone in this enter company but let me tell you this one thing. The moment you mistake me as being weak or not knowing what the hell is going on that is when I am going to strike, that is when I am going to do every little thing that I possibly can to defeat any little thing in my path. The management of Canadian X may toss me two people one week or in this case three and it's not going to matter..I push the unleash button deep inside me and let out something that no one in this company has ever seen.

I am far, very far from being weak. You see over the last week or so I have been nice to a certain person only because I was trying to be a friend when someone that seemed to have needed a friend but yet I am painted as the asshole. Well, you want to meet the asshole, you now have my full attention Tiami. If you think that I am so weak as you say then I guess we will soon see who is weaker during this match, myself or you? Forgot these other two retards in this match, it's not about them, it never was. You have made shit personal and since you like to make things personal..that's fine.

I have done absolutely nothing but stick up for you when you needed it while your little fucking faggot ass boyfriend sat there with his legs crossed watching. I have done nothing to you Tiami but now I will. You say your going to leave Canadian X, please do. Do us ALL a favor and get the fuck outta here. I joined this piece of shit company for one reason, you. You are just too stupid to understand that, too blind not to see it. Your head is so far stuck up your little ex boyfriend and your current boyfriends ass to even realize what the hell you did and what you just threw away. Now I will make you regret that decision, I will make you wonder each night what if..what if I hadn't been a total bitch to Kaden for no reason, what if I didn't treat him like shit..you will have a lot of what ifs running through that head of yours and it's nothing but your fault. It's your fault that you have made me do this, it's your fault that you wanted to throw away whatever we had which I thought was a good friendship..so that's fine. Fuck the friendship, fuck this company and you an go fuck off and wonder who your going to blow the night before the match, your ex or your boyfriend. Frankly, no one gives a shit less.

Let me ask you something Tiami, where was your boyfriend when Starr was talking shit about Anna? Where was he? That's right, he was no one to be found, a real man sticks up for his girlfriend and her daughter and not let a piece of shit such as Brett Starr talk down to them both. A real man defends his family or whatever..what you have in David is a piece of shit pussy. He couldn't even defend you against Brett Starr....BRETT STARR Tiami!

Everyone else in this match is a joke, whatever happens during this match I blame no one but Tiami. She wanted to see the real me, the real Kaden Kessler well dear..you're getting him on Monday.

Joey...Timmy boy you're both a joke man, can't even lace up Brett's boots and that says a shit ton about your ability seeing how he is the worst wrestler here even if he has that championship on his shoulder. Angelo and the powers behind that little camera know what I am capable of, they know what I bring to the table and they know none of you can bring it..you guys and especially you Tiami lack the "It" factor. Myself and your world champion have what IT takes to but the ass' in the seats and that's why I am here. I am here to be the man, the person to bust their ass inside of that ring and to defeat anyone that they put in front of me. Joey Edwards...Timmy..you two are just a mere stepping stone for me and don't worry Tiami I didn't leave your pretty little face outta it. I have special plans for you during the match, I have something very..special for you. Just as you said, what happens in the ring stays in the ring..I just hope you can understand what happens to you, why I do what I do..I thought you would be the one person that would understand me..guess I was wrong...